First Love.

Can you hear that?

My heart is telling you that I love you.

But I cannot reveal my true feeling to anyone.

Can you hear that?

My heart is still waiting there for you to open.

And I can only hope you will know it.

I am the one here to love you.

I am begging you please know it.

Someday. 

06 March 2010 - 06 March 2012.

Happy two years anniversary buddy.

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First love, I hope one day you will realize that I did truly care for you. I promise you, you are going to miss me being there, putting up with you and refusing to give up on you. Bet me. You are going to regret everything you have done to me, including all the damage you have caused. Someday, you will turn back and I would not be waiting for you any longer. I might of always been worthless to you, but you will miss me, when I become priceless to another.

Well, I think after somewhere along the way, I GAVE UP. I got tired of always trying to make everything between us okay. I got tired to do everything just to make you stay with me. This is just because I really wanted you in my life. Then now, I seriously realized that you didn't even care about this. Maybe I realized it too late, but it still hurts. Maybe I was hoping that we would find a way to change and turn it back to what we used to be. Recently, I have to draw the line because there comes a point where I just had enough. There comes a point where I do not want to see you at all. Not that I hate you but I think I would love to give up. Seriously. Actually, I should give up at the very first place but I never did because I had hope that it would change. But seems like it will never happen. Seems like we are nothing. Right? 

Now, I think I have to make that decision because it is not fair to the both of us. Especially me. Well, it pains me to say this. Maybe because I still care about you. But no matter what, I have to tell you goodbye. I know what my problem is now. I cannot let people go. Apologize me. I put so much effort into putting them in my life that I just hang onto them. But I know. People change and things are not what they used to be. I just wanted to tell you that I am happy you have stepped once into my life, even for a short while. You have made me realize a lot of things about myself and the people around me. I am going to miss you. I hope you will be happy with your life now. So, for both our sake, this is my goodbye.

cc: Mr You.

"Let's learn to put the past behind us."